Change is something that is inevitable, but still no one likes it very much. There are some changes for the better and some that are not so good. I personally really hate change, for the most part. It is only three weeks into the New Year and I am starting to feel like I and already buried in changes.
There are changes happening in both my personal and magickal life. On the magickal side I am mostly okay with the changes taking place. As we as a coven are looking for new seekers, I am torn, I know that you can not stay in one place or you will become stagnant. However, at the same time I am scared to let new people into my magickal world. I am a person who, as anyone who has ever met me can attest to, has absolutely no problem sharing details of my personal life with others. I do not however really like to share my magickal life though. Now do not get me wrong I will be more than happy to discuss magick and witchcraft on a generalized or introductory level but I do not easily share more in depth details with others. So the idea of having new people share in my magickal experiences scares me.
I think these feelings stem from the fact that since my personal life is in the process of collapsing, I need to feel like I am in control of something in my life. So, like most people do when they feel as though they are losing control, I am clinging tighter to the one remaining constant in my life, my magick and coven family. I know these days and changes are not going to destroy me, but I do not know if they are going to make me stronger either.