There is not a person on this green earth that is not on a life long quest for inner peace. Whether we know we are looking for it or not, we all are. Some people find it early on in life, others may never because of a lack of action. There comes a point I believe however where we each come to that realization that what we are doing in our daily lives doesn’t work for us any more. We might wake up one morning and suddenly come to the conclusion that our job just is not where we need to be. Sometimes that might even be a relationship of some kind. The point is many of us have this kind of awakening happen that drives us to do something different.

I had that happen to me a couple of years ago. I knew things for me spiritually where not ok. I knew that what I was doing was not for me. Not because it was difficult or too conforming, or rigid. I actually didn’t mind any of those things and did not find my former path very difficult at all. I just realized that deep down I did not believe what I was being taught at church and that I really never had. I knew that the years I had spent teaching young people and children each Sunday were all really for myself. I was trying to re-enforce all the teaching of that faith to myself. I was trying to make myself believe it, not the others in the room.

The morning I woke up and all of this came to me was not a pleasant one. I had spent 20 years of my life going to that church each week and was very active. I tried to tell myself that I was wrong for having doubts or questioning the church. But I had always questioned, and I knew that. I knew I needed to look at what I really had always believed and that is what I did. I took the time to do some reading, not a lot in all honesty. I did some, checked out things on the internet, made some lists for myself of things that I was looking for. I knew that I wanted something more in my life other than just being me. I am a very spiritual person and I knew that I needed something to work on in that part of my life.

So after a few months of looking and some reading I found that the things that I felt were true and right for me were the same beliefs, in general, as Pagans. I didn’t know what to do, where to go, or how to start. But I knew that something was guiding me and I needed to keep myself open to any opportunities that presented itself. I had to keep my mind open. A few months later I started a new job that frankly could not have been better or come at a better time than what it did. At this new job I met the most interesting woman. That woman is now my High Priestess.

This entire journey that I have been on has done so much more than show me the spiritual path that I want to walk. It allowed me to examine who I am and why I do what I do. I work on a Help Desk. I'm a computer nerd. I help people, and that is what I love doing. I loved being a Sunday school teacher from the aspect that I was able to help people spiritually. Well that helped me come to the realization that what I really want to do in life is to do just that, help people spiritually, but not based on any specific doctrine. I want to help people come to their own conclusions and stops along the road of spiritual peace. In a few weeks I will be completing the rest of my work for a Doctorate in Metaphysical Psychology. I will be able to really help the way that I want to and that I will find fulfilling.

If you are at a point in your life where you feel that you are not feeling that inner peace you so desire, open yourself up. You never know where you will stumble upon what you are looking for. I found it at work.